I feel like such a fool.
How did I ever think that something like this could even have a chance of happening? How could I blind myself so much to what was so obviously right in front of me? Held back by timing, politics, goodwill, and wise council. Now left as a fool that never expressed the inner most feelings, keeping it hidden, locked away, held inside. Exposed to the truth as it all fades away. Left to deal with these hidden feelings, to suffocate them once again.