I wish I could write you a happy update to this path I tread. I wish I could tell you a story that would plant a smile on your face. I wish I could recollect a memory that we can revel in nostalgia. I wish that this decade past would have something to show, something to hold onto.
I really wish that I would have left you without worry. People still worry about me today, and maybe they should. I feel lost my friend. I feel…tired and restless, angry and dgaf. I feel like I just want to fight everything and everyone. More than anything I feel like starting over.
Maybe if I start anew I can fool them all over…just for a time. Find a little bit of solace in this eclectic existence. Not all who wander are lost, and some truly wish not to be found. It hurts…getting close. It hurts reliving these memories over and over again…they just won’t leave. She haunts my mind of late. Why? I don’t know. I also look into the eyes of a new one and…well, that’s a story best left to never be written. I wish I could forget. I wish I could turn off my mind.
I wish a lot of things. I wish you were here. I wish I could have traded places.
Love Always,
Your Friend
P.S. I still remember.